Wednesday, July 21, 2010

One Year Ago


One year ago today I received the news that upturned my happy little world - my dear Dad had passed away. At age 56, he had suffered a sudden heart attack.

One year later, I still miss my Dad's calls to check on us, his genuine interest in what we'd been up to and most of all, his big warm hugs. I know he would have shared with great excitement seeing Grace growing and changing and all the milestones she has reached. Not a day has gone by in this past year when I haven't thought about him.

The photo above from when I was a teenager is one of my favourite photos of us two and sits framed on our study desk where I can see it each day and remember how precious life is and how important it is to let our loved ones know how much they mean to us... I'm glad my Dad knew how much we cared...

39 comments:

  1. Although it's been a year since losing your Dad, I know how fresh it must still feel for you my dear. I lost my Dad 10 years ago next month, and whilst I still wish he was here more than anything (esp. now with BB on the way) it does get a little easier as time passes. And you're right, the main thing is that your Dad knew or should I say knows how much you love him. I hope today is not filled with too much sadness but more of beautiful memories. Big hugs, Son xo

    ReplyDelete
  2. Wow..amazing how fast time goes by honey....I remember you posting about your fathers passing..cannot believe its already been a year. Im so glad that you have so many wonderful memories about him..and ones that you will share with Grace..I too am sad that my mother wont get to know her grandson...or him his grandmother...but I will have stories to share and memories so that she will always be present in his future. Thinking of you sweetheart xo

    ReplyDelete
  3. Oh Amanda, so sorry for your loss. Thinking of you today. xxx

    ReplyDelete
  4. Big hugs for you today Amanda - I can't imagine how you feel but the thought of not having my parents around is unbearable. I really feel for you.
    Take care, Sarah x

    ReplyDelete
  5. Oh my dear Amanda, my eyes are all teary as I send you big hugs today on this tough day. It must be so hard on days like today when you remember. It's so good that you have so many happy memories you can reflect on.
    Thinking and praying for you sweetie!
    Jxoxoxoxooxox

    ReplyDelete
  6. Dear Amanda,
    May your wonderful memories be a constant strength and comfort for the absence of your dear dad. Christine xo

    ReplyDelete
  7. Sorry for your loss Amanda, it must have been such a shock to lose him at that young age. I am sure he is looking down and following your family's progress.

    ReplyDelete
  8. oh that made my eyes hurt........i can't even imagine what you must be feeling, and am so glad you have beautiful memories of him.......thinking of you lisa

    ReplyDelete
  9. Big hugs to you today amanda xx
    i also lost my dad when i was just 4 years old & he 27 - im so glad you got to spend time & get to know your dad who sounds like an awsome person!
    hugs
    sal x

    ReplyDelete
  10. ohh sweetie i know how hard it must be for you today as you know i'm going through it right now...sending you a HUGE BIG hug from me... always remember his always in your heart and your memories.there's always a piece of your dad in you and your daughter so his presence always lives on. that photo's is so adorable so nice to have beautiful and sweet memories I'm thinking of you today mwah melli xxx

    ReplyDelete
  11. I am thinking of you today Amanda and sending you big hugs! My dad passed away at age 55 when I was 18. I have the same thoughts with my son and how wonderful it would have been for the two of them know each other! My dad had only 5 girls and my son was the first boy grandson. xx

    ReplyDelete
  12. Oh god Amanda, that must have been absolutely heartbreaking... I am sure your dad is looking down on you from heaven and watching the antics of your little Grace with a big smile on his face. xo

    ReplyDelete
  13. Thinking of you today. A-M xx

    ReplyDelete
  14. Hi Amanda... I am so sorry you have had to go through that heartbreak. I understand the daily sruggle, and especially the first year, it can still seem so unbelieveable.

    I hope our Dads are up there somewhere, sitting together, looking down on their little girls...blogging away..

    Thinking of you today
    Flick xx

    ReplyDelete
  15. That was a sad thing to read as I didn't know you then...didn't even know about blogs! Such a young age for your dad to go, but it sounds as if you have really wonderful memories to sustain you...especially on days like today. Lots of love x

    ReplyDelete
  16. Oh Amanda. My love and thoughts are with you. It's a wonderful thing that you have a great Dad like him to look upon you still. Much, much, much love to you. xoxo

    ReplyDelete
  17. Dads are so precious, especially to daughters. Thinking of you.

    ReplyDelete
  18. Today is obviously going to be difficult for you Amanda but it does get easier. I lost my Dad when I was 20 and 23 years later I still think of him every day but it's not painful any more - I just tell my children how much he would have loved them and funny stories from my childhood. Even though they never met him they still feel that he is a part of their lives. Silly I know but it helps me!
    Hope today isn't too painful for you x
    ~Sam

    ReplyDelete
  19. Thinking of you Amanda...what a wonderful Dad to have and hold the good memories you shared..
    Rebecca xo

    ReplyDelete
  20. Such a lovely photo and so nice to have such warm memories...take care.

    ReplyDelete
  21. Thinking of you Amanda. Enjoy and keep close to your heart the wonderful memories.

    ReplyDelete
  22. What a special man he must have been, Amanda. That is such a lovely picture of the two of you, you both look so happy :)

    Big hugs for you today xx

    ReplyDelete
  23. I'm sorry for your loss, but it sounds like you have lots of amazing memories so your father will be with you always.

    ReplyDelete
  24. Love that photo of you with your Dad! Kylie xx

    ReplyDelete
  25. Oh Amanda, what a beautiful photo, I am sure your dad was so proud of his beautiful daughter...
    God bless you honey.
    Jen xo

    ReplyDelete
  26. That is a really beautiful photo. I think it's lovely that this is how you remember him. Take it easy today, think of the lovely things and have a special smile for him. xx

    ReplyDelete
  27. You are in my thoughts Amanda. Take care of you and your beautiful family that your father watches over and smiles proudly. Hugs to you. xo

    ReplyDelete
  28. It must be a tough day for you. Thinking of you and your family.

    ReplyDelete
  29. Such a beautiful photo of you and your dad. Take care.

    ReplyDelete
  30. I feel your pain, it's so hard to loose a parent at such an early age. What a gorgeous picture of the two of you! Thinking of you!
    XO

    ReplyDelete
  31. Just found our blog, and I'm so sorry for your loss. But what a blessing to have a Dad you love so much. Hugs to you. Your blog is great, following you.

    ReplyDelete
  32. I've only just discovered your blog and it's so beautiful. I can't imagine the pain of losing your father and I'm sending you good thoughts. Love your blog BTW.

    ReplyDelete
  33. It must be so hard to have lost your dad Amanda, I can't imagine how that feels but he sounds lovely and you must have some wonderful memories. I hope you had an ok day xx

    ReplyDelete
  34. It must be hard time for you this week Amanda but I bet he would be so proud of you. That is a wonderful photo and so glad you have many happy memories to hold close as well.
    xx

    ReplyDelete
  35. So sorry you're hurting Amanda, and I'm thinking of you. Your dad must have been wonderful, and it's obvious from your photo that the two of you shared a lot of love. Sending you lots of hugs and support. K xx

    ReplyDelete
  36. Amanda, This is such a touching post as I lost my dad a year and a half ago to lymphoma cancer. My daughter was only 6-1/2 months old and it is still very hard for me. I wish you strength and some peace in this as time comes. My best,
    Rebekah

    ReplyDelete
  37. Your post about your dad is beautiful. I'm sure you made your dad's life fulfilling and happy. I like the way you write. It is very soothing.

    ReplyDelete

Thank you so much for taking the time to leave a comment - it really makes my day!!